Surrender

Pebbles

Pebbles, my 8-year-old rescue dog, hates the sound of wind blowing, trees rustling and wind chimes dancing and singing in the breeze.  It was her fear and trembling that the Lord used to lead me to an answer regarding a serious situation.

Pebbles and I woke up one morning to cloudy skies and heavy wind gusts.  Knowing that she is scared of the wind, I went outside with her in hopes of reassuring her.  She stayed close and darted quickly toward the door to get back in the house.  As soon as I sat down, she jumped into my lap scared and shaking.  I gently covered her up with a blanket and nestled her close to me until her heart quit racing and she calmed down.  While holding her, Rich Mullins’ song, Hold Me Jesus began to play in my head.  “Hold me Jesus, I am shaking like a leaf, you have been King of my Glory, won’t you be my Prince of Peace.”

I pulled the song up on YouTube and began listening to it with tears trickling down my face.  I then broke into sobs when these lyrics were sung. “Surrender don’t come natural to me, I’d rather fight you for something I don’t really want to take what you give I need, and I’ve beat my head against so many walls, Now, I’m falling down, I’m falling on my knees.”

Right after I listened to that song, a YouTube video by Joyce Meyer popped up.  The video was on rejection.  Joyce talked about her decision to make huge changes in her life to the chagrin of many people close to her.  She went forward with the decision knowing it was from the Lord. 

Sometimes God’s reminder for us to surrender everything to Him comes in different ways.  He used a 17-pound mutt who was “shaking like a leaf” to get my attention and lead me on the right path.  I have surrendered it all to him, knowing that, “having been confident of this very thing, that He who did begin in you a good work, will perform it till a day of Jesus Christ.” Phil 1:6 young’s literal translation of the bible.

I am clinging to the words in this song and daily submitting to Him as I walk out this journey. 

The next time you are beating your head over and over again against the wall, perhaps these lyrics and this song will also help guide you to the answers you need.

Hold Me Jesus Lyrics by Rich Mullins.

Sometimes my life just don't make sense at all

When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small

So hold me, Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace?

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hot inside my soul
I swear, there must be blisters on my heart

So hold me, Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace?

Surrender don't come natural to me
I'd rather fight You for something I don't really want
To take what You give that I need
And I've beat my head against so many walls
Now, I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees

And this Salvation Army Band is playing this hymn
And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin

So, hold me, Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace?

I'm singing, hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace?
You've been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace?

His Beloved Warrior Bride,

Johanna

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